Cherish it.

The title is the takeaway.

Hi friends,

My daughter started walking. This was huge for us because she was so young doing this massive milestone.  She is now 10 months old but took her first steps at 9.5 months. The funny part is that I was almost so vulnerable in those first weeks that I didn't really say anything to anyone.  I wanted the other moms to talk about anything but how my child was starting things that most don't so early. 

Our little family is well, and I don't like to bring too much attention to this.

Call it being humble or weary or the evil eye - whatever is happening - it comes from the deepest maternal part of my being. My family feels very nuclear at the moment, and I want to cherish this.

This is what the theme of life has been for me recently; Cherishing the slow moments, the days, and just allowing it all to be, exactly as it is.

It's been an embarrassingly long time away from my pad and paper. Although today I'm writing this on a note in my phone. There has been so much life that transpires daily. The moments of moving to a new place, a beautiful home, and creating the community that we need to survive here. It's all so good and beautiful, and yet, writing had to take the back burner.

There are lots of insecurities that we as a family are facing,  but I've learned to slow down my mind and focus on the present.

It's really the only way to enjoy what's going on around me. There was a lot of discomfort in not knowing what the future holds in terms of financial stability and home stability.  Stability is my best friend, and she is turning a fickle shoulder towards me at the moment. It's hard not to know if you have a solid place to stay and how you will survive financially.  It's actually harder when you have a baby because you know you can adapt, but tiny beings need the comfort of home.

My inner child starts to activate when the insecurities come looming. She says,

" Let's make sure we have what we need. Who can we talk to about this?"

And so I find myself looking for someone to brief it out with me, but typically, I am aware enough that this is a fear that's coming across.

I say this to her -" We're going to continue to be fine and taken care of. The Universe is listening to us. What we perceive is what we create. We are creating safety, stability,  and magic. Don't worry. "

She, my now self, and Esme all smile back at me.

I'll keep you all posted on how the journey goes.

With love,

Misha